The right question

I'm always thinking of the next "plan" whether its a diet or exercise regieme but the more i have tried and failed to consistantly maintain a "normal" realtionship with food the more I have realised I'm asking the wrong questions.  Despairingly I have asked "what is the secret to keeping the weight off?", "what is the best diet to follow?" , "what are the best times to eat?", "which exercise burns the most calories?" and so on.  I realise now that the more I search for the answers to these questions the more I am dissapointed in the answers, and in the results they bring.

I've tried laxatives, slimming pills, eating plans, fasting, liquid diets, exercise plans and making myself sick.  I've tried scaring myself with medical horror stories, supersize horror stories and death.  I already know what I should be eating, how often and when to exercise but there is something stopping me doing what I know is best for me.

I've now started asking "why?" - "why am I so obsessed with food?", "when did this unhealthy obsession start?" and most importantly how can I cure myself of this disease.  Saying it is a disease might seem a little over the top but the more I think about it the more I am convinced it is.  And in the same vain I think that the reason I am still struggling is because I'm only addressing the symptoms not the root cause.

But what is the root cause?  So now my mission is to find out where this all came from and try and cure that and hopefully the symptom of overeating will fix itself....