BBQ!

First barbecue of the summer yesterday, we had these absolutely divine burgers with red Leicester cheese and chunky rustic chips with the skins still on.  Absolutely gorgeous.  I spent about 40mins just dozing in the lounger looking up at the trees swaying in the gentle breeze and listening to the birds chirping.  It was fantastic. 

I'm glad i managed to let go and enjoy that little bit of the bank holiday.  Especially as I have had trouble with my eating and have not really been bothering trying to control my eating for the past couple of days.  I spoke to hubby about Cushings syndrome and asked him if he thought I could have it.  He agreed I have a lot of the symptoms.  Trouble is I can't get into the doctors until Tuesday as they are closed for the bank holiday.  I guess even GPs need holidays.

Still, carrying the worry around with me is not easy and quite often I come out of a daze and realise I am just going over and over it in my head with no real purpose.  Normally I do this with my eating and anything else I am worried about I guess it's just my OCD.

Still the logical part of me is telling me there is absolutely no point in mopsing around the entire holiday so i'm keeping my chin up and getting on with it.  we're off to the cinema to see Limitless tonight which i know i will enjoy so it's not all bad.